Christmas is days away and I feel so absolutely unprepared. Thank god I did most of my shopping before the baby arrived. Between that and online shopping I think I have managed to cover most of my gift giving needs.
We decided to do photos of the kids for Christmas. Partly in an attempt on my part to appear normal, and feel normal. I am really pushing myself to do two things every day. Fold laundry. Clean out a junk drawer. Clean the bathroom sink. Teensy baby steps towards finding my old self again.
When you have the first baby there is a sea of visitors following the baby's arrival. They come armed with lasagna and gifts, and it's a heartwarming way to not only welcome the new baby but also to ensure that the new mother puts lipstick on and gets out of bed.
With a second child visitors are few and far between. So the unfortunate thing is that new mothers don't have the same motivation to keep the house tidy and get themselves "back to normal".
It's been a real struggle for me. I am frustrated that my body isn't returning to it's old self as quick as I would like it to. I over did things the first few weeks physically (hard to believe, I mean seriously? Stairs are that bad for you?) and now I may have popped a stitch internally. Jesus Murphy that sucker hurts.
I am happy that I can drive again, although the idea of carting baby and toddler out seems overwhelming. I just need to find my groove again. I remember with the wee farmboy I was incredibly nervous on those first solo trips. So I know it will get easier.
When you are at your grocery store next, and the mom in front of you is juggling a toddler and a baby - please be patient. Smile, and say an encouraging word. It could very well be me.